Hi Atlantis
I've survived a lot. You look back and realise that actually you are sometimes better off alone, even if you'd never choose to have it that way.
In my next video I mention a sis from Italy who married one being groomed to be an elder. He was a cruel man and gaslighted his wife. She was not allowed to speak. The elders joined together as an old boys' club and protected the one they wanted to make an elder.
When a newly interested person joined the cong, he (the newly interested one) could see that her eyes were screaming at him, "these people are mad." He never forgot that look. He knew she needed help but did not know how to help her. Later she killed herself.
So better to find out now that someone is going to wipe their feet all over you than marry that person and find out then.
People don't half kick you in the teeth sometimes. But once you understand that is what some so and sos do and it's no reflection on yourself it does help. It's a massive comfort. You learn that in order to protect your feelings you need to turn away from those people until they learn how to behave with genuine loving kindness.
Hope Petra is feeling better in Switzerland.